just_aims asked me for the top 5 questions for which I don't have an answer.
1. What do I want to do with my life? What do I owe the world?
Man, I have no idea. Sitting around in a cube and writing things just isn't doing it for me. I could probably do much better if I started a business...but a business doing what?
Sometimes, I think I'd be a really happy camper if I just opened up a 24-hour restaurant that I'd be happy hanging out at and found some way to work computers into it. Others, I think I ought to suck it up -- I'm in a pretty comfortable career. Other times after that, I think I ought to play around with cars.
I go between wanting to make an impact on people and being perfectly content making people's lives happier in smaller ways.
2. What should I care about in life? How should I change as a person?
I've been thinking about how we describe people after they die lately. We tend to sum up certain things almost as though it's a quest listing from a video game. What is important in life? I don't really believe that any of it's of any use after I die.
I keep thinking that I need to buy clothes and present myself a bit better. I've even been considering being nicer to people. I feel like I've gotten farther and farther away from various heroes of mine. Adaptation is a worthy trait in a species and in an individual. I occasionally feel as specialized as an insect.
I certainly need to eat better -- I'm rapidly approaching a point where things like effects on my cholesterol need to start dictating my tastes.
3. How does one become wealthy?
I have little hints of ideas, but I'm a long way off from seeing it as anything other than being careful with your finances and being in the right place at the right time.
4. What's the future going to be like?
Ultimately, the 3 previous questions have been subcases of this. I have no idea. I tend to find the past interesting because of how things happen. I find the present boring because it's only the way things are. I find the future fascinating because it's how things are going to be. The trick to life -- as near as I can tell -- is to grab ahold of every passing vehicle that'll take you there and pay for fuel as best you can.
5. Why aren't I working right now?
Man -- I dunno. Isn't vacation supposed to make you return to work and be extra productive and stuff?